Mary Haan – Sour Milk and Lavender Blooms

Totally not a milk poem, but we'll take it!


Sour Milk and Lavender Blooms

Art is as much
choosing the right words 
or the right palette
as it is 

accepting bullets in the chest
(sans bullet proof vest)
and speaking truth to power

Art is as much
holding your punches back
when a void is meant to be
or when it shows a lack

The negative space 
is where
we spoil and decay 
or where 
we leave 
our mark

Because what matters most
when nothing really lasts
is less about the future
bearing witness to the past 

(Can I get a witness? 
Or just a skylark...?)

Art is as much
me as you
Enraptured by the 
beauty of the
duty covering the 
loss of
chaos  —
seems more 
lonely now 
when 
only knowing future 
tracks
exactly as they happened then

is Silence found again?

Art is as much a revolution
as it is a form of life
if you Believe in tonics like
sour milk with crushed lavender blooms
charming and unrefined 
in passion fruit rooms 
and
skies
bright and blossoming
bearing milky acid rain
beneath the weight 
            of 
unrequested burdens 
containing the pain
           of 
unrequited blessings 

Did you? 
Did you believe that spoiled resurrection?
It was a lie.

Art is as much a revolution
as it is your demise
because this will be the end of you
no one makes it out alive

With this pen
I thee extol
These words lay me down to sleep
This rest defines my soul



author bio: Mary Haan has been writing terrible poetry since she was 10 years old. After finally reaching some semblance of maturity at 30 years old, she now spends her days caring for two rambunctious kiddos, creating chaos at The Cave Collective, and listening to ridiculous mix CDs from high school. Despite the depression that accompanied the pandemic, she’s proud to say that she has still never consumed an entire glass of milk.